Life is always changing

I have been blessed to be home with my kids for the last week. I walk them to school each day, and pick them up at the end of the day. I have really loved it. I wish this was my life always. I want to be the mom who can do this every day. The mom who will be home all summer taking care of them. Unfortunately this is not our life, and my time at home with them is ending. I will be going to work at a new job in the next couple of days and they will be back to full time daycare. I have always been a working mom by necessity, but have always wanted to be a stay at home mom. So I wonder, do you give up on the dream and wish after so long of it not coming true? This past week has been extremely hard on my family, one wave of bad news after another. We will get through it and come out on the other side as we always do. Family intact and our bond stronger because of it all. It can just get hard to keep being positive and keeping my faith. Everything happens for a reason, but sometimes I would like to know the reason.

So I am working on keeping my faith that things will work out as they are supposed to, but sometimes I would like them to work out the way I want them too also. These times in life is when it would be good to have a friend to lean on, and cry on their shoulder. Sadly I feel like this isn't really an option for me. When there is a huge event, then it is okay, but when I am just sad and disappointed I feel like I have to shoulder my burden alone. No need to put anyone else out and add to their burdens. I will gladly take on other's burdens though.

I hope your life is working out in the way that you hope. I am going to go clean my house now and shake off the melancholy that has set in. Happier posting tomorrow :-)