Intuition or Not Intuition

Have you ever felt like you knew that you were going to do something? I don't mean a conscious choice that you can make, but a feeling that something is going to happen in the future. Sometimes I have these extremely vivid dreams that I actually remember, and some of them have come true. That whole Deja Vu thing. It seems to be negative things, almost like God is prepping me ahead of time so I can handle it better. When it happens to me for real, it is a very strange feeling. Even as I do things that I saw in my dream, I can't seem to stop what is happening. So I know it was meant to be, but I am also going to be okay.

Then there are the things that you just know. I know that I am meant to be home with my kids and that they will not be in daycare forever. I have a sense of when I feel that this will finally happen. So for a while I wondered if it was just wishful thinking on my part, after all it is something I truly want. However it doesn't feel like that. It is not something I spend my time thinking about, but I feel it. I am not sure if that makes sense to anyone, but if you have experienced it you will know what I mean. Almost like I knew that I was meant to be a mother even though doctors were pretty sure I wouldn't be. I knew that Allan wasn't an only child even before we had Cara. I talked about that with a friend once because she had told her children that Allan was an only child and not used to all the noise that the three of them made. It was interesting because I never once thought of him as an only child, always as a first child, soon to be big brother. That could also be considered wishful thinking by others, but I always knew. Even when it took so long and there were surgeries and complications, I knew that there would be another child in our family.

So the question is, do you consider it intuition or a message for you from God? I believe the two are interconnected. After all where could something like intuition come from other than the Lord helping us to make better choices and decisions? I am glad that I am choosing to listen and paying attention more as I get older.