I hope everyone is starting their year off they way that they wish. Here at the Wheelock household it wasn't quite what we wanted, but then nothing ever is :-)
Allan got Cara's illness on Tuesday, he got sick at Boys & Girls club. In a weird turn of events Chris showed up about 10 minutes later to pick the kids up. He doesn't normally come to get them, they just go home with me. It was pretty amazing that he showed up. He only took Allan and left Cara with me as she wished. Allan was sick the whole time. I took care of him all night and during the day on Wednesday. So I missed work and stayed home with him. He finally feels better towards the end of the day on Wednesday. Like Cara, a 24 hour illness. His was a little worse, seems like each person who gets it is a little worse. So 3 am Thursday, guess who is sick? Yep, me. Oh boy and did I have it bad. For sure the 3rd person to get it had it worse! So rather than do anything at all, we brought in the new year at home quietly. We watched the ball drop in NY in our bed. Then it was back to resting for me. I am finally out of the woods and feeling better, hurray!! I am hoping to be completely myself tomorrow. Maybe the weekend can be salvaged after all.
I was reminiscing this week about how different my life has become living out here in AZ. If I had been back home, I would have been planning a big New Year's party as we always did in years past. The illness would have been a bigger deal if I had people coming over. Of course here we don't have the parties, don't host people over much. Chris keeps saying we can do it here, but I don't know who exactly we would invite. I don't always want to invite the people that we do now. I want more friends, I want to branch out. It is hard as an adult to start over in a new place. I work with people almost all younger than me. They are nice and I like them, but they aren't the people I would invite over to party with us. Not that we are huge partiers, but you get the idea.
Sometimes I feel like I just keep getting farther away from where I want to be each day, each month, and especially each year. I need someone to help me figure out how to get what I want. I want to stay home with my kids, I want other mom friends, I want people to scrapbook with. I want to have people to love and people who love me that aren't all far away. I want time to be with my kids, I don't want to work so much and so hard for so little, I want to blog every day. I want a lot, but would be happy with some of it. All suggestions will be accepted. I am working on being happy with I want, but we are told we can be whatever we want, do whatever we want. How many people do you know who are really living that way? Working at the job they want, doing what they want with their life? That is my goal, not resolution, for 2010. I am going to figure out how to get more of what I want, without sacrificing who I am, what I stand for, or my family.
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